Unlimited Tales

I really can’t resist in kissing you. Lol. Note: Hindi po...

Mon, 13 May 2013 19:52:29 +0800

I really can’t resist in kissing you. Lol. Note: Hindi po sa akin ang lahat ng yan. :-P

Last five minutes before punching out. Lol.

Sun, 12 May 2013 20:17:12 +0800

Last five minutes before punching out. Lol.

Chilling at home. Best way to enjoy your rest day is to get...

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 17:41:24 +0800

Chilling at home. Best way to enjoy your rest day is to get lazy. Lols. :-)

Books to read until the end of the year! :-)

Mon, 24 Dec 2012 19:22:51 +0800

Books to read until the end of the year! :-)

Para kanino kaya ang mga ito? Abangan! :-) (at Sitio Roadside,...

Wed, 19 Dec 2012 22:23:40 +0800

Para kanino kaya ang mga ito? Abangan! :-) (at Sitio Roadside, Brgy. Banaba West, Batangas City)

The shy type. ;-) (at SM City Lipa Batangas)

Wed, 19 Dec 2012 13:45:13 +0800

The shy type. ;-) (at SM City Lipa Batangas)

"I wish I could be every little thing you wanted."

Sun, 26 Aug 2012 20:24:05 +0800

“I wish I could be every little thing you wanted.”

Fatherly love

Mon, 18 Jun 2012 11:32:54 +0800

I still remember the first day I stepped my foot at the Exportbank building. I was nervous - not having even a single idea of what will happen to me or where this might lead me to.

Everything is so new. Yeah, I know that a new environment is what I always want but this is different. Everything seems to be first time for me.

As my journey started to run, I felt the obstacles that I need to surpass. From physical to emotional up to my working attitude were put on a test.

I was never a perfect employee. Seriously, at first, i felt giving up. Because it’s hard to adjust, and I am a type of person that could get demotivated easily.

But someone proved me wrong. I was put under Zaira’s supervision for my first 8 months in the company. Those were the critical 8 months since it’s when my performance were fully monitored for regularization.

With her utmost help, I got regularized. And not only that, I was able to exceed the goals that the account is demanding from each agent.

Few months later, Zaira resigned. This was unexpected. She never said goodbye to me, to us. And again, I was again in doubt of continuing my journey in this company.

But our operations managers are still kind to put me under TL Jolly’s supervision. The one who is always there whenever I have problems, and I mean any kinds of problems. The one who taught me everything I need to know about the account.

The one who actually trained and motivated me to apply for a higher position.

And now, yes, I am now in the same position as theirs. I am thankful for them who always believe in what I can do and give. The achievement I have is for them, without them, I might not be able to wear the shoes they’re wearing as well.

I just hope that I could be as good as them. Because sooner or later, I want to hone an agent whom I think has a potential to be a leader. I want to give my support to that one who could do and accomplish what a Team Supervisor needs to accomplish.

Because someday, I want to see my agent to fill the shoes I am wearing right now. With that, I will be fulfilled.

For I know, I change a precious life.

Compensation

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 14:43:21 +0800

I’ve been busy for a while.

Yes, for a while. About a week already.

Since I was given a new set of tasks, I focused on my work to know everything that I need to know.

Indeed, pabor ito sa akin. Sobrang pabor.

I still remember that time. The moment that I wished two things from God.

And I never thought that I have received the answer at that day as well.

FLASHBACK.

June 6 (10PM) - I was with Ate Maxang in Starbucks Waltermart.

We talked things, as in serious things, as in things that I never thought that I would be able to disclose during that time.

Maybe because the environment was set for a melodrama.

Oh yeah, I was dramatic that time. Nasabi ko ata ang lahat ng kinikimkim ko kay Ate Maxang. Paunti-unti man pero at the end, nailabas ang lahat.

Then, it was time for me to go to office. I have shift at 12MN.

As I am waiting for a jeep, I decided to make a group message.

My original plan is that hindi siya isama.

And yet, naisama ko. Katangahan lang.

Oh well.

June 6 (11:30 PM) - I received a text message while I’m on 8th floor, smoking.

A text message that anyone would not want to receive.

Don’t get me wrong. Though it’s negative, the approach was fine. Good. Angelic (wait lang? sobra naman ata ang term kong angelic?)

But still, reality will still bite you, no matter how beautiful the words you have used.

Yeah, it did ruin my day. It did ruin my shift.

But life must go on.

So, I decided to leave it sa 8th floor.

Nothing shall affect me once na nasa production floor na ako.

And luckily, I was able to do that.

June 7 (4AM) - Boss JP approached me. I need to report to Boss Jay and Rap at that time.

I had a hint. It was about my application for promotion.

Goosebumps. Nerve-wrecking ang moment na yun. I was hell nervous!

Then, I entered Boss Rap’s office. Boss Jay then entered as well.

They’re smiling at me. A mocking smile.

Then Boss Jay broke the silence.

“We decided to choose you to fill up the position.”

I was speechless. Breathless. Coz I didn’t expect that it would happen so fast as that.

Those only happened for just one day (or one shift on my end).

And it made me think.

God might not be able to give you the exact wish that you have,

but somehow, He will give you a different thing that would compensate that.

Still, God is great. And I am so thankful for that.

I still remember that time. The moment that I wished two things from God.

And I never thought that I have received the answer at that day as well.

He granted me one, the other was rejected.

And yes. Oh yes.

I am so good with that.

Choosy pa ba ako?

Besides, it helps me to…never mind.

Cliffhanger.

"I’m letting go tonight. I’m falling from cloud 9. I’M WIDE AWAKE."

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 16:39:32 +0800

“I’m letting go tonight. I’m falling from cloud 9. I’M WIDE AWAKE.”

Yung moment na 80s na love song ang background music, Tapos...

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 11:17:50 +0800

Yung moment na 80s na love song ang background music,

Tapos nakita mong online ang ex mo.

At hindi mo namalayang napachat ka na sa kanya.

Heto pala ang pakiramdam ng walang halong bitterness.

Masarap. Parang walang nangyari. At parang wala kaming pinagawayan.

Namiss ko lang tong kausap. LOLs

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Fri, 08 Jun 2012 10:29:16 +0800

It’s almost a year na Sun-Mon ang aking rest days. And...

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 10:09:00 +0800

It’s almost a year na Sun-Mon ang aking rest days.

And yes, the time has come. Napalitan na ang off ko.

Consecutive nga, pero weekdays off naman.

Pfft!

Oh well, that’s life.

Sometimes, you need to sacrifice for your own good.

LOLs.

Kaya to! :)

"We accept the love we think we deserve."

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 17:30:13 +0800

“We accept the love we think we deserve.”

- Perks of Being a Wallflower, 2012

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Wed, 30 May 2012 16:11:56 +0800

Unmasked

Wed, 16 May 2012 20:39:44 +0800

Let me share with you a piece of my story. A part of my so-called adventure that truly changed me in one way or another.

The sexual preference I have right now isn’t innate. I was never born gay. No one was born gay, I believe (even if some claim they were).

I never played Barbie Dolls or paper dolls. I never played ‘bahay-bahayan’ or ‘lutu-lutuan,’ the usual games girls play. In fact, I was interested with action figures, toy cars and books, then.

But to be honest, I enjoyed playing with little girls rather than little boys then. I was aloof with boys. Maybe because I was raised by my mother within my childhood years. Maybe because girls were dominant in number than boys in all sections I belonged with during my elementary days.

But just out of the blue, there was this feeling that bothered me. The feeling of being different from the boys. The feeling of being one of the girls in an unexpected way.

I have the feeling that I am quite different when I was on my 6th grade, and was triggered during my high school years.

I was afraid then. Afraid of the reactions of my parents, friends, and relatives. I still even remember when I was on my first year high school. A girl friend of mine asked me, “Bakla ka ba?” Of course, I answered no. She didn’t grab that, instead, she shouted on me, saying, “Sumama ka nga sa mga lalaki. Baka matuluyan ka.”

I actually did that. Once or twice. But since the aloofness I had whenever I’m with guys were still intense, I still went back to my girl friends.

Just to prove myself and to others that I am not a homosexual, I tried courting a girl. She was one of the performers on our section. She is actually prominent in school since she’s also active with extra-curricular activities and academic competitions.

I wrote a letter in a tore piece of paper from my notebook. I gave it to her friend so that she could give it to her.

The next day, her friend was smiling at me. A smile with a meaning. She handed me a paper. I went to the men’s restroom and inside a cubicle. There, I read the message. I was busted. I cried, but I really don’t know why I cried, or maybe I really don’t know if the tears were sincere.

That was my first and last time I courted a girl. Because after that, I focused on studying. I focused on academics. Not until my junior year in the high school university.

I joined CAT, a military organization comparable to the college’s ROTC. There, I was obliged to be more manly. There’s even one instance that my commandant called me in the office. She had those stern eyes pointing at me like a dagger. Then she asked, “Bakla ka ba?”

I paused for about 5 seconds or so. I said no, and I doubted that she will believe it.

But I never heard anything from her after that. Maybe she knew that I was still having an identity crisis.

For me to prove that I am not really gay, I focused on CAT, on its training. Until I became an official officer of the organization.

The senior year, the judgment year that is. I had a new set of friends on that year. Three girls and a boy. They are the most liberated students I ever met during that time.

I thought that they will ask me the usual question I always get whenever I meet new friends. But no. They just let me in their company. They stayed, without asking.

I had a crush from one of the senior boys as well that time. My friends noticed it. One of my friends actually asked me, “Crush mo si _____, ano?” And automatically, I nodded. I even don’t know why I nodded.

Surprisingly, her answer was, “Okay lang yan. Ilakad kita sa kanya? Gusto mo?” That was a joke, obviously. But I took it seriously.

From then, I started to get out of my nest, out of my comfort zone, and try the things that my heart and mind wants me to do and feel. And for the first time, it felt good. Infinite. Like I was imprisoned for about 14 years and is now free.

Time passed. We attended a retreat in Capuchin. One of the activities is that we need to talk with each of our classmates and tell whatever you want to tell.

It was time for me to talk with one of my bestfriends. I still remember what she said, “Magpakatotoo ka lang sa sarili mo. Makikita mo, tatanggapin ka rin ng lahat.”

And suddenly, tears rolled down. Unstoppable. Because I know that their intention was good. They didn’t push me to be someone I might never wanted to be. Instead, they pushed me to think, explore, realize, and decide to be someone I would really like to be.

The way I see it, acceptance from someone is the key for them to finally accept the fact of who they really are. For in the first place, one would always be afraid to show who they really are if no one believes in him.

This is not to push all confused out there to finally spread your wings and tell the world who you really are. This isn’t only about the sexuality itself, either.

This is to remind you that it needs a lungful of courage to step out of your shell and grow in the way you would like to be. It needs a lot of determination to step your foot forward and convince them that it’s the best. And it needs a lot of trust from you to see that you’re not alone, and that there are people who believe and will always believe in you.

As for me, I am happy with what I have and who I am right now. Everything might not be in the exact place right now, but still, I do what I like and show what they would like me to see.

And of course, I follow what my heart and mind wants to. I hope that you’ll follow yours, too.

LOA

Tue, 15 May 2012 00:07:36 +0800

Had my check up earlier.

And it almost lasted for more than an hour.

Hindi na tuloy virgin ang ilong at tainga ko (because the doctor needs to scope)

LOLs.

Diagnosis: Acute Rhinosinusitis, Tonsilopharygitis: Allergy vs Viral, Viral systemic infection

Tss.

Natapos rin ang pagfifile ng LOA (leave of absence).

At last.

Wuuh.

Sooooo…

Let’s sleep naaaa.

BTW, please, take care of your health.

Mahirap magkasakit.

Promise.

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Thu, 03 May 2012 16:14:40 +0800

Kambal Tuko

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 16:03:00 +0800

Patuloy ko pa rin siyang minamasdan kahit ilang dipa man ang layo ko sa kanya. At sa aking bawat sulyap ay nababanaag ko ang tunay niyang nararamdaman.

Matagal-tagal ko na rin siyang nakakadaupang palad. Sa una’y tila aso’t pusa kami sa maraming bagay na hindi naman agad mapagkasunduan. Ngunit nang dumating ang panahong kailangan niyang gumawa ng malaking desisyon ay ako ang kanyang nilapitan.

At mula noon, hinangaan ko siya sa katapangan niyang taglay. Sapagkat hindi lahat ng tao ay pipiliin ang landas na hinahatak niya ngayon.

Masaya niyang pinanindigan ang desisyong pinili niya. Ngunit sumalubong sa kanya ang isang taong susubok sa kanyang tatag. At dumating ang panahon ng kanyang pag-amin, pag-aming sa paniniwala ko ay matagal niyang pinag-isipan.

Ramdam ko ang kanyang pananabik. Ngunit kalaunan ay naramdaman ko rin ang pait ng katotohanan. Kitang-kita ko ang bawat pagpatak ng perlas habang pilit niyang inaalo ang sarili. Naroon ako upang siya ay damayan kahit alam kong wala rin akong magagawa.

Ngunit sutil talaga siya nang mapagdesisyunan niyang ipagpatuloy ang kanyang balak kahit bigo ang kanyang unang aksyon. Ramdam kong bukal sa puso ang bawat galaw niya upang patunayan na maganda ang kanyang intensyon. Sana nga lang ay ganito rin ang nararamdaman ng taong pinagpapakitaan niya nito.

Pilit ko siyang hinahatak palayo. Pilit ko siyang itinutulak sa ibang landas sapagkat hindi ko rin mapigilang maawa sa kanya. Ngunit wala rin akong nagawa. Sapagkat mas malakas ang pintig kanyang ng puso kaysa sa buga ng hangin mula sa aking bibig.

Hindi siya nakuntento sa aking pananaw. Bagkus ay humingi ito ng komento sa ibang taong itinuturing niyang pangalawang pamilya. At tama ako, alam kong ganoon din ang sasabihin nila sa kanya.

Hanggang isang araw ay ginulat na lang niya ako. Narinig ko ang bawat yabag ng paa niya papunta sa ibang landas, landas kung saan siya ang mas makikinabang.

Naipinta ang ngiti sa aking mukha. Sa wakas, dilat na dilat na ang kanyang mata. Sa wakas, natutunan na rin niyang maglakad.

Ngunit napapansin ko na ang bawat yabag ng paa niya ay malakas. Umuugong, na tila mabibigat ang bawat bagsak ng kanyang mga paa sa lupa.

Hanggang sa nakita ko ang katotohanan. Hanggang sa siya na mismo ang nagpakita ng katotohanan sa akin.

Dahil sa kanyang paglalakad ay hindi pa rin niya mapigilang lumingon sa lugar na pilit niyang nilisan. Hindi pa rin niyang maiwanan ang nakaraan, at nag-uumapaw pa rin ang kanyang kagustuhang makamtan ang dati pa niyang inaasam.

Alam kong masasaktan muli siya kapag hinayaan ko siyang tumakbo pabalik sa kanyang pinanggalingan. Alam kong muling babaha ng luha kapag muli niya itong binalikan.

Ngunit alam ko ring mas lalo siyang masasaktan kapag hinarangan ko ang daan pabalik sa kanyang nakaraan. Sapagkat ito ang gusto niya. Kahit ayaw nito sa kanya.

Kaya ngayon, narito lang ako sa malayo. Pinagmamasdan siya sa kanyang mga galaw. Patuloy pa rin ang kanyang paglalakad, at patuloy pa rin ang kanyang paglingon.

At anuman ang maging desisyon niya, papanoorin ko lang siya mula sa pwestong ito. Hahayaan ko siyang madapa muli, sapagkat alam kong makabubuti ito sa kanya. Hindi para mamulat siya sa katotohanang nakikita ng iba, ngunit para matuto siyang ipaglaban ang bagay na gustung-gusto niya.

Sapagkat ramdam ko siya. Oo, ramdam ko siya. Dahil iisang dugo ang nananalantay sa aming dalawa. At iisa ang kaluluwang naninirahan sa aming dalawa.

Sapagkat siya at ako ay iisa.

PS. Walang kwenta ang pamagat. Bow.

I was just checking my profile when my friend tagged me a...

Tue, 10 Apr 2012 21:47:29 +0800

I was just checking my profile when my friend tagged me a photo.

At nagulat ako sa photo na to.

Dahil hindi ko makakalimutan ang photo na to.

Hinding-hindi.

Oh well.